I am not in control...

I always hate admitting that. It is probably one of my biggest flaws. I have a meeting with Corey's case manager and service providers today. Not a big deal the meeting happens every year before his birthday so his funding can be renewed. What makes today special is it's the 1st time the meeting will be held at my house. I am really worried about that and I considered trying to repair all the damage Corey has done so they wouldn't see it. I didn't want them to think that I wasn't in control of things but the bottom line is I am not. That is the reason I was approved for the extra funding and Vikki and Will were given extra hours in the 1st place. But knowing that doesn't seem to stop my need to appear in control.

You mix the door, the patio, the walls, his bed, and then my OCD need for everything to me neat and you have a picture of a crazy woman :) But I am the crazy woman who managed to get the largest amount of funding per month for her child in my county. The crazy woman who managed to keep said 225lb boy from hurting himself, me, or Cam. That is not all bad. So maybe they will agree that the crazy mom is doing ok even if she is not in control...